So... updating this account is becoming harder with each passing day. So much is on my mind that I don't even think about my computer having internet capabilities so I can jump on and try to be somewhat productive. That and art block makes it even harder.

Oh well.

I'm trying... but... it's hard.

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In other news... Finally managed to get a hold of Quest 64. My brother use to rent that game from a video store (that no longer exists...) and I'd watch him play. It looked fun (though I was young enough that I didn't care about the story, only the magic and stuff). So I decided to track down a copy and, finally able to play it myself, have fallen in love with the ancient graphics (polygons anyone?) and the basic plot.

Have also started playing Rune Factory 2. I was iffy about buying it (since I own... like... more than a dozen Harvest Moon/Harvest Moon based games already)... but now I realize what a good decision that was. Farming + RP game where you can tame monsters that will fight by your side, water your crops, give you milk, eggs of wool... yeah. I'm in love. Again.

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Went to a theme park with Draza and Triv on the 1st. It was... fun, I suppose. Today my calves are so tight that walking is hard... and the skin on my lower back is extremely tender, as is the skin on my lower abdomen. Ugh. Moving around sucks right about now.

And fly bites can be found... just about everywhere on my body. Very glad I bought some anti-itch cream earlier last week.

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It is, indeed, time for a change. What kind of change? Well... I don't know yet. I want to cut my hair (it's shoulder blade length-ish now... and I'm thinking above the shoulders/styled. No colour 'cause it fries my poor, poor hair), and since I'm going shopping in the city next Saturday with Draza I plan on getting some new clothes. A new look never hurt anyone, right?... I'm just kinda.. plain and blah right now (I feel that way) and I just wanna spice something up if even a little.

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Ever have the problem where you just seem to be an afterthought?

Like... something happened (big, memorable, exciting) to a close friend/family member and... you only hear about it weeks later, from someone other than the person it happened to?

Or...

The only time they seem keen on talking to/doing anything with you is when they seem to have nothing better to do (no rearranging of schedule needed)?

I've been getting that feeling a lot from someone close lately and it's getting really hard to deal with.

Being second best doesn't bother me...
But only being there when there isn't anything else....; That does bother me.

But what can I do? I don't confront people unless absolutely necessary.
All I can do is distance myself from them and hope whatever connection they think we have disappears, because right now, the last thing I need is more emotional strain.

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It's time for a change.

Hrm.

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Here I sit... so many things on my mind. Sigh.

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Mom has called me three times today to ask me how to save WordPerfect files, and print them (because whenever she does it on her own she never actually 'saves' them.. and the printer just takes forever so she'll think she did something wrong...). It doesn't really bug me as much as I find it amusing.

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Coworker and I were trying to figure out how to turn another coworkers bubble Mac (they're the older versions that look like they have a bubble on the back of the screen [which is technically a Mac's 'tower' when compared to Windows]).... (we have different computers than the other people who work here. Ours are BIGGER and BETTER... and need to be updated in the sense that we're getting new ones at some point). We looked and looked and felt so silly... then we saw it... hidden by wires and camouflaged on the side of the computer. That took a good five minutes of time. Oops. Way to go us.

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The grandmother stayed overnight at the Hospital last night because she was feeling pain everywhere from her waste up (aching joints, stomach, abdomen pains, head pains, neck pains, etc, etc, etc) so they think she has... some fancy word that means swelling of the brain. When I was updated on the situation this morning they were thinking of admitting her for a longer stay than just last night... which is good... but at the same time bad.
It's also not good because the Grandfather is still recovering from his knee surgery that he finally managed to get a few weeks ago.

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Cleaned my car out last week... only for a bird to crap on my window the very next day. SIGH. I hate seagulls. But at least the inside is all spiffy and vacuumed. <3

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Mom brought over her piano for me last weekend and I've been playing it ever since. It's so nice to be able to come home from work, sit down, grab whatever sheet music suits my fancy, and play/learn it. =^_^=

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Fishy is back in my possession as the Neighbour has left to work for the next three weeks or so. Very happy to have him back - he's actually very good company (for a fish) and it makes the place feel less... empty.

Which reminds me... I need stuff for my walls. They're completely bare!!!!!... also need to paint them (with the landlord's permission, of course), and fix up some things..... and do a load or two of laundry. Ack.

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So.

Computer guy is suppose to come by tomorrow night after work to replace my.. power core? or something that has to do with ' power ' so I can use my CD/DVD drive again (and start backing up EVERYTHING on this thing!).

Check 1 of things done on list of things to do (contact computer guy)
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Abdomen pains are getting worse, which is really starting to make me worry, so a few weeks ago I made an appointment with the family doctor. Too bad he went on vacation the past two weeks or I'd be in sooner.

Check 2 for my doctor's appointment on June 1st.
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Called the cable company, who came to fix everything while I was at work (something in the electrical room made it go wonky), and now I have more channels than what I had before it went. Weird. Was I SUPPOSE to have these ten or so extra channels before, and if so, can I get a discount because I paid for them and they came in as static?.... probably not. Oh well.

Check 3 for finally fixing the cable.
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Mom is going to loan me her piano until whenever she wants it back or I decide to get my own. She's suppose to bring it sometime this weekend or early next week. <3

Check 4 for acquiring a piano (Check+ for not having to buy one... yet).
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Art block is almost gone. Yay. Finally.

Check 5.
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I'm now doing some freelance design for a coworker. Yay extra moneys (*needs iiitttt*)!

Check 6 for not trying and still getting freelance work. Sw00t.
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All that's left on the checklist is...

1. Find a new dentist because the old one has moved out west because he decided that, since he now has four children, living in a small community just won't do.


2. Clean my windows. Damn wind keeps kicking up the dirt and making them all... fuzzy?


3. Clean my car - inside and out. Fun.


Annnnddddd... last, but certainly not least....


4. Finish the dammed picture before the piano gets here or it'll never get done.

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Every time I sit down to try and update this journal my mind has a horrible tendency to remove coherent trains of thought. I can think about what I would like to write long beforehand, but the moment I sit down to do such a task... my mind wipes clean.

Oh well.

Life is... life. Neither good nor bad.

Suffering from multiple things.

Art block has settled in quite nicely, unfortunately.

Keep getting pains in my abdomen - almost like cramps, but not quite the same, and it's not every day and they aren't constant. Which means I should probably make a doctor's appointment. Sigh.

Have to find a new dentist.

Must remember to contact computer guy.

A lot of things are on my mind, keeping me from thinking of anything but. Makes me kind of glum, but it'll pass.

Grandfather went for an operation on his knee this past Tuesday, and while he was there he had what the Mother referred to as an 'episode'. Come to find out, he has heart troubles. I guess they'd noticed something odd when he had his stroke nearly six months ago, but never made anything of it. But this time they managed to find him a heart specialist within thirty minutes of the episode who diagnosed him with whatever condition the Mother told me but my memory fails to recollect. Blood thinners among other medication will now adorn his bathroom cabinet. Saddening.

My cable is wonky. All of a sudden half of my channels became static while others are half static, but lovely audio. Not sure it it's my television (though when I watch DVDs it's as clear as always) or not, so first step is to call the Company and ask what I/they can do to fix it.

The Neighbour's male friend/family snores. Though there is concrete in the walls (a good foot of it), whenever the Man sleeps over (he must sleep on the couch because it's their living room that shares the wall with my bedroom) I lay awake with a mountain of pillows over my head to try and block out the random grunts and snorts.

The other Neighbour returned a few weeks ago after three long months of MIA. She left once more, for work, this week and asked if I'd take care of her fish, Simon. I was glad to help her out (I visited her once and she's such an interesting woman) and took Simon the fish (whom is just Fishy for me). He seems content here. Blowing bubbles is his favourite pastime, and if I'm walking around the table or across the room, he'll follow me. Such a darling fish; makes me wish I could keep him. But, alas, I cannot. Perhaps I'll purchase one for myself... hmmmm.

I guess a coworker of mine has had nightmares (their words, not mine) of me leaving. I guess she figures I am young and undecided in life and could possibly quit and move on, leaving them to work the weekend shifts once more. Truthfully, I laughed at the tale. I adore my job very much and have no intentions of leaving any time in the near future. Funny how people are about having weekends off...

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